Singapore Dreaming
My New Year's night at Chicago was spent watching Singapore Dreaming along with 7 or 8 other Singaporeans.
The show is a rather distrubing show, and depicts a side of Singapore which appears very ugly. In the show, we see maids being abused, a boss abusing his secretary, who in turns abuses her maid and husband; we see the chase after the 5C's in Singapore and how ugly money issues can turn into. The creme da la creme though was this guy, who spent his girlfriend's money to goto America to study. However, he is a total jerk, and not only did he return without a degree, he also squandered his father's money and bought a nice car for himself without finding a job first. Furthermore, he lied to his girlfriend and shouted at her despite the girlfriend giving up so much money and her youth for him.
I feel so scared that I might end up like that guy. I'm not really so worried about not graduating. It's more of certain traits in me which seem to persist. I know that I am lazy, untidy and worst of all, I like to procrastinate.
I am going to try something new this quarter. Every day, before I sleep, I will create a list of things I have to do for the next day, and I will reflect on the good and bad things which I have done on that day, and record it all down(obviously not on this blog). Furthermore, I must try and ensure that I finish everything which I set out to accomplish on that day.
It has only been half a day back in the University of Chicago, and I am already getting back into the study mood which occupied 3/4 of last term. During the holidays, I entered the 'gamer' mood and played extremely hard, but within half a day, it appears that my mood has totally changed. I believe that the atmosphere here is really extremely intense, even though there is no one reading or studying, but just being in the university already places much academic stress on me. I am glad I did not bring any of my games over, and I have just deleted my bridge(reinstallation is just 1 click away though). Sigh, I know that I will find it hard to get over my addiction to bridge. What is interesting though, is that just six months ago, I was hardly playing any bridge. In fact, DOTA and WoW occupied the most part of my time. Somehow, in the past quarter, my passion for bridge was reignited. I believe it is mostly due to the fact that I have seriously no other way to entertain myself since I did not bring any of my games with me.
On a brighter note, I have been given permission to take Maths 208 this quarter. This, even though a small thing by itself, is perhaps the thing I am most proud of for the autumn quarter.
I guess this just means more and more hard work this quarter. If I was forced to drop out, I can probably enjoy a slack quarter this quarter as I will be relearning everything I learnt last quarter in Maths 203. Why do I want to take a harder maths course when I can choose not to? I do not know. Probably the desire to make my tuition money worth it. I mean, everyone pays the same amount, so I might as well make full use of the amount I pay.
I feel that God is guiding my life. Just yesterday, I was still pretty disappointed over housing issues, but today, I feel so happy after having found a house mate. Perhaps, this is God's will, just as in so other many things in my life previously I could not understand, but turned out very well? Despite this, I know that I can never look at them with the same innocence and friendliness again.
The show is a rather distrubing show, and depicts a side of Singapore which appears very ugly. In the show, we see maids being abused, a boss abusing his secretary, who in turns abuses her maid and husband; we see the chase after the 5C's in Singapore and how ugly money issues can turn into. The creme da la creme though was this guy, who spent his girlfriend's money to goto America to study. However, he is a total jerk, and not only did he return without a degree, he also squandered his father's money and bought a nice car for himself without finding a job first. Furthermore, he lied to his girlfriend and shouted at her despite the girlfriend giving up so much money and her youth for him.
I feel so scared that I might end up like that guy. I'm not really so worried about not graduating. It's more of certain traits in me which seem to persist. I know that I am lazy, untidy and worst of all, I like to procrastinate.
I am going to try something new this quarter. Every day, before I sleep, I will create a list of things I have to do for the next day, and I will reflect on the good and bad things which I have done on that day, and record it all down(obviously not on this blog). Furthermore, I must try and ensure that I finish everything which I set out to accomplish on that day.
It has only been half a day back in the University of Chicago, and I am already getting back into the study mood which occupied 3/4 of last term. During the holidays, I entered the 'gamer' mood and played extremely hard, but within half a day, it appears that my mood has totally changed. I believe that the atmosphere here is really extremely intense, even though there is no one reading or studying, but just being in the university already places much academic stress on me. I am glad I did not bring any of my games over, and I have just deleted my bridge(reinstallation is just 1 click away though). Sigh, I know that I will find it hard to get over my addiction to bridge. What is interesting though, is that just six months ago, I was hardly playing any bridge. In fact, DOTA and WoW occupied the most part of my time. Somehow, in the past quarter, my passion for bridge was reignited. I believe it is mostly due to the fact that I have seriously no other way to entertain myself since I did not bring any of my games with me.
On a brighter note, I have been given permission to take Maths 208 this quarter. This, even though a small thing by itself, is perhaps the thing I am most proud of for the autumn quarter.
I guess this just means more and more hard work this quarter. If I was forced to drop out, I can probably enjoy a slack quarter this quarter as I will be relearning everything I learnt last quarter in Maths 203. Why do I want to take a harder maths course when I can choose not to? I do not know. Probably the desire to make my tuition money worth it. I mean, everyone pays the same amount, so I might as well make full use of the amount I pay.
I feel that God is guiding my life. Just yesterday, I was still pretty disappointed over housing issues, but today, I feel so happy after having found a house mate. Perhaps, this is God's will, just as in so other many things in my life previously I could not understand, but turned out very well? Despite this, I know that I can never look at them with the same innocence and friendliness again.
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