Back in Singapore
Back in Singapore after 3 months of Chicago. Wheee....
I couldn't wait to come back to Singapore while I was in the plane. The thought of using my mage again, playing bridge with friends, DOTAing and all that.
However, after a week back in Singapore, I feel that these games have lost their appeal to me already. There is no point raiding in WoW anymore since lvl 63 greens are supposed to be better than BWL epics. Bridge at one time started to interest me again after I found a partner who would play a fun system with me. However, after my partner abandoned me[ I think she blocked me on MSN and I have no idea why ] and 3 days of playing with other people, I just feel that it is just not as interesting to be playing standard sayc or 2/1 bridge. And well, DOTA.... everytime I play it I get pissed. No point playing. I guess Chicago as changed me. I do not derive as much pleasure from playing games anymore as I used to.
Anyway, I feel that I have sacrificed too much in my life in exchange for these games already, that it's come to a point where it is not worth it anymore. Even though the most fun times in my life so far had been playing DOTA and WOW with Sophia, who is paw1, and I do not regret playing it, it has come to a point where I feel that it is not worth it anymore. I remember the times when I would play overnight on Saturday night and go to church like a zombie on Sunday morning.
This plus the fact that my mother has agreed to pay off my bond and sponser my tuition fees overseas drives me to believe that I should stop thinking about all these games and concentrate on what is important in life.
I guess the thing which really makes me feel sad after I come back is to find out that someone whom I like and respect smokes. With this physical symbol, I suddenly feel upset and my perfect image has been destroyed. To me, there is no difference between having sex in JC and smoking. They both harm the body. My friend told me, in the body, it says that your body is the temple of God, and thou should not defile it. I guess God is trying to tell me that no one is perfect.
Anyway, enough of that for the moment. Time to go to church.
I couldn't wait to come back to Singapore while I was in the plane. The thought of using my mage again, playing bridge with friends, DOTAing and all that.
However, after a week back in Singapore, I feel that these games have lost their appeal to me already. There is no point raiding in WoW anymore since lvl 63 greens are supposed to be better than BWL epics. Bridge at one time started to interest me again after I found a partner who would play a fun system with me. However, after my partner abandoned me[ I think she blocked me on MSN and I have no idea why ] and 3 days of playing with other people, I just feel that it is just not as interesting to be playing standard sayc or 2/1 bridge. And well, DOTA.... everytime I play it I get pissed. No point playing. I guess Chicago as changed me. I do not derive as much pleasure from playing games anymore as I used to.
Anyway, I feel that I have sacrificed too much in my life in exchange for these games already, that it's come to a point where it is not worth it anymore. Even though the most fun times in my life so far had been playing DOTA and WOW with Sophia, who is paw1, and I do not regret playing it, it has come to a point where I feel that it is not worth it anymore. I remember the times when I would play overnight on Saturday night and go to church like a zombie on Sunday morning.
This plus the fact that my mother has agreed to pay off my bond and sponser my tuition fees overseas drives me to believe that I should stop thinking about all these games and concentrate on what is important in life.
I guess the thing which really makes me feel sad after I come back is to find out that someone whom I like and respect smokes. With this physical symbol, I suddenly feel upset and my perfect image has been destroyed. To me, there is no difference between having sex in JC and smoking. They both harm the body. My friend told me, in the body, it says that your body is the temple of God, and thou should not defile it. I guess God is trying to tell me that no one is perfect.
Anyway, enough of that for the moment. Time to go to church.
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